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08 June 2006 @ 01:02 am
Fin  
I won't be posting in this journal any longer. So you'll have to check MySpace for all my current shit from now on.

The page will remain up, but solely because there are a few communities on here that I still enjoy occasionally checking up on.


..and that's it. Goodbye.
 
 
08 May 2006 @ 09:25 am
Pretty fuckin' sweet!

Two thumbs up.
 
 
18 April 2006 @ 11:42 am
Honestly, I don't know where the fuck my head is at anymore.

A few months ago, my dad told me, "Ya know, what you really need to do is get off your butt and finish school so you can quit all these bum jobs." - referring to working security for shit pay, and basically applying for whatever other jobs are out there. But how in the shit am I supposed to do that, when I need to be able to afford my rent, truck payment, electric bill.. along with groceries and gas every month?

Of course, I know what he's thinking. He's thinking the big solution to all my problems would be to move back home - where I'd be rent-free and have less obligations. But bounce that jive talk! I'm not in my early twenties anymore. Those days are over, son.

Quite obviously though, 'this whole school and music thing' is what's got me down and out as of late. I mean, it's not exactly frying me out or anything. But it does bother me a great deal - not knowing what to do about it.

I guess I just can't decide whether or not my heart is in it anymore. I mean, when it's good.. I enjoy both - school and music recording. But when it's bad.. it just kills me. Kills my nerves, kills my spirit.. kills everything. And I've grown kinda tired of that emotional rollercoaster. Ya know? It's too much for me.

So I guess what I'm trying to decipher is.. is that part of my life over now, too? And if so, in which direction am I headed now? Because I'll be god-damned if my life no longer has direction.

Just trying to figure it all out. And the bitch of it is.. I'm the only one who can really do that.
 
 
10 April 2006 @ 10:26 am
Saw them with Courtney this past Saturday night at The Quest.

It was pretty cool. We got there a little late (my fault for overestimating typical rock show set times in Minneapolis), and they played a fairly short set, about 45 minutes. But it was still pretty cool even though I'm not that familiar with their tunes.

Next up, Court's agreed to go with me to see Ladytron at First Avenue on the 22nd! So that should be sweet, even though she doesn't know much about them other than what I played for her the other night. :~P But hey, it's like my/her turn or something? I see someone/something you like, then you go see someone/something I like. heh.

It's cool though, Snow Patrol is coming and we both know and like them. So that's kinda reassuring - knowing it won't always be a compromise. haha

It should be a fun summer. I'm looking forward to it.
 
 
06 March 2006 @ 03:14 pm
Welp..

I'm back working at Amerilab. But only on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday mornings now; 5:30am to 12:30pm. Yes, I agree - those are really shitty hours. But Avalon hasn't been able to find me anything better as of yet, so I've been pretty much forced to just take whatever they have available. Which sucks.

However..

No real need to get too frustrated about that shit, because I'm starting a new, full-time job at Boston Scientific tomorrow!

Yes, that's right - FULL-TIME!

Last week, I signed on with Pro Staff and attended a job interview/orientation at Boston Scientific in Maple Grove where they were looking for 40 medical assembly workers to help them with their manufacturing of catheters and drug-coated stents.

After signing a load of papers, taking a bunch of unnecessary physical ability tests, going through one-on-one interviews with staff personnel, and then driving across town to submit to a drug and alcohol test.. I was then able to attend the 2-day classroom training course inside BSC (Boston Scientific Corporation) starting the following day where they ran a full 8-hour schedule that included powerpoints and tests.

There were on average 3 tests a day, and some of them were actually pretty difficult. We were always told that we could only get two wrong to pass, and if we didn't pass then we were soon after escorted out of the building. Yeah, it seemed a bit strict and pretty shitty at times.. but hey, as long as you were in that class and paying attention, the average person shouldn't have had too much of a problem. At least I personally didn't think so.

So yeah, I passed everything. And now begins the on-the-job training in which I am being paid. Of course, this job could still be labeled temporary since I haven't actually been hired yet (You have to pass training to be hired for a position), but to be completely honest for a minute.. a vast majority of the other people that are applying for this job, and whom are already currenly employed within this field, are foreigners who can barely read and speak English, so let's just say that I'm not sweatin' it too hard. I mean, I'm not trying to be racist or stereotypical or anything like that, I'm just stating the obvious - this is a demanding job that calls for the ability to be able to read, speak, and understand English well in order to perform.. so if they can do it, then I sure as heck better be able to.. know what I'm sayin? It's common logic.

Anyway, so that's where my work and finances are currently at.

On the other side of the spectrum, my relationship with Courtney seems to be getting better and better with each new week. Just recently (after Valentine's Day), we have arrived at the point where we are now frequently stating and showing our love for one another. So that's been really sweet.

It's been great actually. :~)

Sometimes I just kinda sit back and admire what we currently have, ya know? Sometimes almost as though this weren't actually happening to me, or to us.. but rather to somebody else that I know and care about, and that I'm simply being happy for them. But then Courtney will smile at me, or touch me.. and then suddenly reality hits me and I forget whatever crap I was just thinking about.. and the only thing that suddenly means anything at all is being with her, and experiencing things together. And being happy.

I love her. She makes me very happy.



More updates soon..
 
 
 
10 February 2006 @ 03:32 pm
Well, I really didn't want to talk or write about it.. but I lost my job working security at Amerilab.

No, I wasn't fired. The fuckin managment decided to cut production (for whatever reason), and so they have done away with all night shifts.

So... now Avalon is trying to find me something else, but who knows how long that may take? It took 'em two months to find me the Amerilab gig, so yeah.. this recent job layoff puts me in a rather unsettling position.

Thankfully, I have been able to help my dad with his construction biz on occasion. If it weren't for that, I'd be hitting the panic button right now. But I still need more cash.

One thing I know for sure - I sure as shit can't just sit around and wait for Avalon to try to find me something. What I need to do is just get up off my lazy arse and find me a better night job. Which is what I began doing today.

I went down to the MN Workforce Center in Blaine and looked into job employment. What really pissed me off though was when I spoke to reception and discovered that they no longer offer job placement due to state/federal budget cuts. Yes, folks.. there's your piece of shit president hard at work once again. Fuckin' cocksucker! Why hasn't anybody tried to assassinate him yet? Really. I don't get it.

Well anyway.. I was supplied with a list of temporary work agencies that could possibly hook a brutha up, and I did manage to steal a lengthy list of local job listings when the bastards weren't looking. Heh. There was a note that said that 'these papers are not to leave the counter.' But fuck 'em! Unless they want to pay my rent next month they need to print themselves another copy. w3rd up!


Help! I need somebody.
Help! Not just anybody.
Help! You know I need someone.
Help!

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody’s help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I’m not so self assured,
Now I find I’ve changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I’m feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me get my feet back on the ground.
Won’t you please, please help me?

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I’ve never done before.

Help me if you can, I’m feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me get my feet back on the ground.
Won’t you please, please help me?

- THE BEATLES, 1965
 
 
Current Music: The Beatles - Help!
 
 
23 January 2006 @ 04:09 pm
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God, I have such a sexy girlfriend! YUM
 
 
20 January 2006 @ 02:59 pm
Another 6 months, Another HIV test.

Saul good. :~)
 
 
18 January 2006 @ 01:11 pm
Well, today seems to be going a little better.

Basically what happened yesterday was.. for one, Avalon changed my work schedule at Amerilab. I was working there Friday through Wednesday, Midnight to 6:30am. But because two fuckwad's haven't been doing their jobs there and have since gotten themselves fired, Avalon has decided to put me on the 1st shift which is Wednesday through Sunday, 5:30pm to Midnight. So I have lost a night's work due to all this shit. I like the hour/shift change. But losing 2 nights on my paycheck is going to hurt.

The other thing that happened yesterday was I got another (there have been about 3 thus far) notice in the mail from Wells Fargo regarding the loan on my truck. Apparently, they haven't seen the title or any of the actual paperwork for the refinancing of the new loan we took out for it, and they have been threatening some pretty vulgar shit if I didn't follow up.

So finally I got pissed yesterday and called up their main headquarters and informed that this is merely 'all my bank's fault' because everything that needed to be signed was signed and that I was assured by their department that they would take care of it all. So any failure that has occured would be largely in part to their fuck up, basically. The woman then agreed and I gave her the number to my bank with the name of the person who handled my loan.

Anyway, to make a long story short.. I got a call from 'my bank' today, and they said that "it's all being taken care of now." So let's hope that they're right. That's one thing that I definitely don't need to be having problems with right now - my truck.

But yeah, today has been better so far. I woke up with Courtney at my side and got some bills paid. So that's good. I am however coming down with a cold though. Ugh. Sneezing a lot this afternoon.

Maybe I should start taking some of that Airborne shit that they make at Amerilab? Hmm.
 
 
Current Music: Boards of Canada - Chromakey Dreamcoat
 
 
17 January 2006 @ 01:56 pm
This day has been fucken shit.